What should I call myself - a traveler or an address-less traveler?
I never understood this, not even today. Meeting with forgotten and blur faces on many unknown way to some destination I curse myself for not being able to look into their eyes as somewhere inside my heart I hold myself responsible of burying them in the graveyard. On a Friday, again, I met one of such buried face, who I never wanted to see. Not because I hate that face but I couldn’t stand the beauty of it. A time was there when I was in Love with her. Although, today, I don’t know whether I still love her or it’s just a retaliation of my mind to heart. No matter, what it is, I just feel concern about the feeling, which I couldn’t fully understand in all that time.
Surely it was something else - no hatred, no fondness, just something else.
I never understood this, not even today. Meeting with forgotten and blur faces on many unknown way to some destination I curse myself for not being able to look into their eyes as somewhere inside my heart I hold myself responsible of burying them in the graveyard. On a Friday, again, I met one of such buried face, who I never wanted to see. Not because I hate that face but I couldn’t stand the beauty of it. A time was there when I was in Love with her. Although, today, I don’t know whether I still love her or it’s just a retaliation of my mind to heart. No matter, what it is, I just feel concern about the feeling, which I couldn’t fully understand in all that time.
Surely it was something else - no hatred, no fondness, just something else.
"Raj, look at her glowing face, she is still the same after 2 long years.” said Heart in amazement filled with fondness.
“No buddy, it’s a buried story and let it be like that only. Why do you want to re-open a book from the past?” argued Mind.
“There is nothing wrong in looking back. Don’t you see it was awesome?” Heart proceeded while looking at her blue eyes.
“Yeah it was awesome, but now it is not. Right now, you are relishing her beauty but I know you very well, you will cry in solace for those ‘AWESOME’ moments and at that time I won’t help you... mind it?” Mind warned.
“Dude, why are you so afraid? Why can’t you enjoy this moment? And by the way, who knows about future?” replied Heart.
“I don’t know about future but I can predict it on the basis of your moron acts…don’t you forget what happened 2 years back, and you still wish the same to happen again.” Mind shouted.
“Chill buddy…nothing is going to happen, everything will be alright.” replied Heart in calm.
“Don’t try to make fool of yours and mine both. These are the same word I heard two years back. Now Listen, if you won’t stop looking at her, I will make the eyes to look in some other direction. So, concentrate on lunch and leave this place as soon as possible.” Mind threatened.
“Ok boss, as you wish. You never listen to me.” said Heart in disappointment.
“I can say exactly same for you.” Mind replied instantly.
Finally, I began eating my lunch. Mind and heart both went silent, no tricks happened but suddenly Heart tried to steal eyes from food to direct them in her direction. Soon Mind caught the theft of Heart and yelled, “Can’t you understand a simple logical and practical thing.”
“O.k. …Sorry…Sorry… again it will not occur.” said Heart sheepishly.
Couple of minutes later heart initiated, “Why do you hate her?”
Mind looked down at heart and replied, “I don’t hate her buddy….I just can’t love her anymore.”
“Are you sure?” asked Heart.
“Umm…can’t say confidently but yes I think I can’t.” answered mind.
Heart started laughing, “Woow….Woow…..you are talking confuse ….Mind you are talking confuse…What happened to you?”
“I can’t love her anymore …that’s it…now happy?” Mind quickly took a defensive stand.
“I agree if you say so.” said Heart teasingly and continued, “but then why you have her memories in your first slot?”
“It’s just because of you …you never allowed me to delete those worthless memories.” clarified Mind.
“Oh yes, but why you always refresh them, why don’t you make them blur since you don’t need any permission to blur them, do you?” replied Heart in investigative manner.
“Ammm….Umm….I don’t refresh them …I just always do a favor to you …so that you could still enjoy those ‘AWESOME’ moments” answered Mind hesitantly.
Heart took the commanding position and stated, “Now don’t try to make me fool.”
Mind realized that Heart had caught it and now it had to surrender else Heart would capture whole system. Mind confessed, “Ok….I admit to this fact that I still like her somewhere in my memory."
Heart roared, “Hrurrururr”
Mind asked, “Now what….o.k.…I admit to the fact that I still love her but what we can do…there is nothing left to do.”
Heart opened the box of philosophy and said, “Look buddy, we are the same, just different faces of single man.” It continued, “If you love her, if I love her, then what’s the problem …let’s give one more chance to fate and life and who knows about the future …may be it is waiting for us.” they looked into the direction where she was sitting but now she disappeared.
Heart yelled, “See…..just because of you we lost her…what a moron you are?” Eventually, I finished my lunch, gave smile to these two idiot organs of mine, and rushed outside the food court with new hope.
“There is nothing wrong in looking back. Don’t you see it was awesome?” Heart proceeded while looking at her blue eyes.
“Yeah it was awesome, but now it is not. Right now, you are relishing her beauty but I know you very well, you will cry in solace for those ‘AWESOME’ moments and at that time I won’t help you... mind it?” Mind warned.
“Dude, why are you so afraid? Why can’t you enjoy this moment? And by the way, who knows about future?” replied Heart.
“I don’t know about future but I can predict it on the basis of your moron acts…don’t you forget what happened 2 years back, and you still wish the same to happen again.” Mind shouted.
“Chill buddy…nothing is going to happen, everything will be alright.” replied Heart in calm.
“Don’t try to make fool of yours and mine both. These are the same word I heard two years back. Now Listen, if you won’t stop looking at her, I will make the eyes to look in some other direction. So, concentrate on lunch and leave this place as soon as possible.” Mind threatened.
“Ok boss, as you wish. You never listen to me.” said Heart in disappointment.
“I can say exactly same for you.” Mind replied instantly.
Finally, I began eating my lunch. Mind and heart both went silent, no tricks happened but suddenly Heart tried to steal eyes from food to direct them in her direction. Soon Mind caught the theft of Heart and yelled, “Can’t you understand a simple logical and practical thing.”
“O.k. …Sorry…Sorry… again it will not occur.” said Heart sheepishly.
Couple of minutes later heart initiated, “Why do you hate her?”
Mind looked down at heart and replied, “I don’t hate her buddy….I just can’t love her anymore.”
“Are you sure?” asked Heart.
“Umm…can’t say confidently but yes I think I can’t.” answered mind.
Heart started laughing, “Woow….Woow…..you are talking confuse ….Mind you are talking confuse…What happened to you?”
“I can’t love her anymore …that’s it…now happy?” Mind quickly took a defensive stand.
“I agree if you say so.” said Heart teasingly and continued, “but then why you have her memories in your first slot?”
“It’s just because of you …you never allowed me to delete those worthless memories.” clarified Mind.
“Oh yes, but why you always refresh them, why don’t you make them blur since you don’t need any permission to blur them, do you?” replied Heart in investigative manner.
“Ammm….Umm….I don’t refresh them …I just always do a favor to you …so that you could still enjoy those ‘AWESOME’ moments” answered Mind hesitantly.
Heart took the commanding position and stated, “Now don’t try to make me fool.”
Mind realized that Heart had caught it and now it had to surrender else Heart would capture whole system. Mind confessed, “Ok….I admit to this fact that I still like her somewhere in my memory."
Heart roared, “Hrurrururr”
Mind asked, “Now what….o.k.…I admit to the fact that I still love her but what we can do…there is nothing left to do.”
Heart opened the box of philosophy and said, “Look buddy, we are the same, just different faces of single man.” It continued, “If you love her, if I love her, then what’s the problem …let’s give one more chance to fate and life and who knows about the future …may be it is waiting for us.” they looked into the direction where she was sitting but now she disappeared.
Heart yelled, “See…..just because of you we lost her…what a moron you are?” Eventually, I finished my lunch, gave smile to these two idiot organs of mine, and rushed outside the food court with new hope.
