The unhappiest man I have ever met in my life is me. Not just unhappy but frustrated, irritated, arrogant and sadistic. I firmly believe that there is nothing in my surrounding that gives happiness or any kind of peace to me, although the little peace that I get from little or insignificant things that reside in my environment I choose not to acknowledge them as if they don’t matter to my survival. But, the truth is completely opposite – they are responsible for my survival.
Appreciation is a mere word to me, with some written defined meaning and seldom have I chosen to put it in any real use. Whoever I ever appreciated I never did it heartily, except for the one person, and I am sure if that one person is reading it now then knows it. Besides, I don’t feel compelled to reveal any names here, so guessing would be a better option for my near and dear ones.
You know… Sometimes, I really wish to appreciate little things done by others but I can’t push myself to do it and the reason behind it lies in the fact that when in the time I needed it most I never had it, so eventually how much appreciation one values in one’s life I lost idea to it, so perhaps I should be sorry for being this ignorant but strangely I am not and for it, I feel opposite - arrogant. And why not – I believe everything that has achieved an erected posture in this whole wide world has the bit of arrogance behind it. Arrogance is the weapon that enables one to oversee the wretchedness of one’s life, to outshoot when one can’t even think of aiming, to propel to a speed when one can’t even think of walk – it gives a delusion when vision and luck had failed you. It is the perfect tool of defeated beings that, despite knowing giving up is the best option still makes the very move. It saves the one from shame when one knows one is shameful.
Hope and Arrogance are very much alike - both are imaginary with hardly any chance of turning into reality and both kills their believer gradually by keeping them all their life at the edge so they can’t believe in reality that is before them and hence render no rest to their real being from the troubles of God knows what not.
Now whenever you encounter the glow of arrogance at my face then behold, it is the arrogance that had me going not the hope because I only know my secrets – the real secrets. So if I am wrongful in my act then I know it before you even get the hint of it. And, somewhere this arrogance in me has kept me from learning the art of appreciation.
Arrogant people especially like me can’t appreciate others - not openly at least - as possibly they had lost everything they had ever desired and the only desire now they were left with was the endless continuation of this false state of being proud of something that perhaps had never ever been even exist. So if someone says that he is not hopeful then be sure he is arrogant and soon it will be unleashed upon everyone who chooses to be in his contact.
Arrogance burns the heart it dwells in to save it from further destruction. It is like the ultimate lover who doesn't share any bit of what she loves in order to save it. For the hopeless beings it is the hope of living, crumbling everything in the path just to reach the end of the road – doesn't matter if that end is good or bad since what matters is the END - an ultimate freedom from everything. Why believer generally of an idea are termed arrogant first before anything else? As they have got a belief in something and nothing else matters that resists it – not even the death, to be precise. In today’s world, such people are called either terrorist or rebel who knows only one thing and not the other. Their belief in their idea first turns them into arrogant and then anything else – just like love.
Love also gives one the taste of being arrogant where the one withstands anything that is even slightly against this idea of being in love. I am perfectly aware that most of you wouldn't agree with this argument since you have been taught only the sweetest things about love and your blind faith in this idea of love had already turned you into arrogant and hence Love has been regarded throughout the world the sweetest things ever happened to mankind or any other kind and the voice against this very belief would surely be faced with arrogance first, anger later, and hatred in the end.
Interesting readd
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